I am 21 years old.  I have been experiencing all kinds of things in these 21 long years i have lived and i'm sure it's the same for you whoever is reading this.  to the point, we are all told this is the real world when we are kids.  we only have 1 chance, 1 life, so don't go throwing it away, yet I see this as not real, in fact... to me this is all a dream that we are all dreaming together.  Everything is energy, there really isn't much mass involved in life.  god is some kind of entity, or so we are told.  but what if god is really just us, and we are it and god just happens to be us when we arent focusing on the physical.  I like life, I was really lucky to have been born into a family that could support me, i have made friends with many who don't have this privilage, but i have experienced more pain than happiness.  so how am i supposed to enjoy something that likes to hurt me, why am i so attached to this physical existence that causes me much pain.  Sometimes I sit down and think, i don't know if i should go on anymore, but another part of me says "never give up hope, for hope is all we have left", this side that gives me hope always seems to win though.  i do really enjoy life, and i do really believe that life will one day take off for the best and i will be flying above the clouds happier then the happiest thought that can be concieved, but how long will that even last?  i have learned nothing lasts in this life and acceptance is something a lot of people come to do but some things should not be accepted especially when it has to do with the few gaining power at the expense of the many.  i just had some kind of conversation with my dad, he told me that i am the only part of his life that he is unsure about because it doesn't seem like i have any drive, to him, besides playing video games.  obviously you can tell i play lots of games... too many probably but i guess that's because i just really like games.  i sometimes think there's something wrong with me because i can accept the way i am currently living... but what am i supposed to do, i have no money to start inventing things yet, and i don't have the ability to make very much money yet from the current selection of jobs that i can do.  anyways, i don't know why i named this life, as a matter of fact because it's mostly my opinion, i just kinda wanted to write without knowing really what i was writing about hah peace out.