I wanted to post a blog that I have been thinking about since I started this GotCast G4 contest. I am a girl gamer and I am a damned good gamer. I have been gaming all my life... to the point that my parents found it slightly disturbing for a female. I work in a video game store and I know my stuff when it comes to games.

I wanted to address a few things about myself, this contest and what I have to deal with at my workplace. I started this contest not because of the way I look, but what I know. I tried to put the most gamer geek and REAL photos (without nudity, licking controllers, or sticking system components in the cooch... gross) on my profile to show people that I am the most qualified candidate for the job. I'm not a gaming celebrity, nor am I well known for gaming, but I am trying to 'break in' (so to speak) to what I feel is my niche and what I feel I am good at. There are four days left in this contest and I really hope I have a chance at it. I know I am not in the top #10 and I know I probably don't have a chance at getting there. I find this whole GotCast method of hiring a new host ridiculous. I admit, basing this whole contest solely on votes is not a good way to choose the next gamer girl. It's unfair to girls who actually know their stuff when it comes to gaming. Men will see the pictures of all the girls and choose the most beautiful (or slutty) in their opinion and stick with that. I doubt ANY of them will actually read what any of these girls are about (some of them are actually cool and qualified girls)!

I know I am a model and have a small fan base for that, but I am not in this thing because of that. Just because I am a model does not mean that I know nothing about gaming. I have been reading some threads on different message boards and the majority of the responses to this contest are VERY negative. I feel like I can take it back and can best represent gamer girls as a whole in a positive way. I am constantly treated like garbage for knowing what I do about technology and gaming as a whole. It is VERY hard for a girl to work in an all male workplace where the majority of the customers are male. I am constantly harassed by male customers who "undress me with their eyes" or make shitty comments about me as they come up to the register while assuming that I know NOTHING about games. If I didn't know anything, I wouldn't be working there and if I didn't love what I do I would have quit already based on the harassment from customers alone. I'm tired of being talked down to, I'm tired of being harassed by male customers (who usually know far less about gaming then myself), and I am tired of feeling like a piece of meat.

As soon as I open my mouth and talk to all of them about what I know and why I game, attitudes change. Respect is often times received and these once harassing male customers become regulars. These regulars often times stand up for me when I am being talked down to all over again. It's a vicious cycle and that is why I feel I might have a chance in this casting. The only problem I see is the fact that G4 will probably never see me, they will be choosing from the top 10 (hopefully they will look at the top 20). Some of the top 10 do know about games, but are already popular gamers and are getting their votes based on that. Some don't even have the required audition video and others have an "audition" video. If I don't win it, I still tried and I am in this for the girls who are treated like me on a daily basis, stay strong and keep fighting.